FREEDOM! No matter what we do wrong, HE continues to do what is right in our lives!

“IF WE ARE NOT FAITHFUL, HE WILL BE FATIHFUL. BECAUSE CHRIST CANNOT DENY WHO HE IS!!!” 2 TIMOTHY 2:13

I had focused my life on the bad choices; the pain, the guilt, the regret…and it eventually had the power to put me into a very deep “sleep”. Because I was so into my own demise and self pity, I lost all focus on what was really going on around me! Combined with the need to succeed–my WORSHIP of man, money and “status”…I WAS LOST….LITERALLY!!!

Uh-oh!!! Did I say WORSHIP??? Yes I did! I figured out that my WORSHIP of these “worldly” things…(men, money, power, status) covered up my feelings of inadequecy and temporarily gave me a “fix” to hide my REAL problems within myself.

I had put all of my “trust” into man and worldly things that would eventually fade away…

But when I finally WOKE UP from the slumber party that the world had put me in, I realized that it was ALL a facade. I could finally see!!

TALK ABOUT A REVELATION!!! Revelation means to reveal the truth…and this truth was so powerful! I was so excited to know that God revealed it to me…and I could NOT contain it anymore!

Hey, maybe I could use my pain to help others?

WOW. Are you kidding me? You mean I can take this mess that I have gone through and actually help someone else??? That’s POWERFUL!!! Your pain can be your reign! Jesus just wanted a relationship with me so He could show me a better life–but I ran from my pain, and started trying to find my “own” happiness. Don’t you see?

Most of us have all played this vicious game: RUN & CHASE. Chase after the things you think will make you “happy” and then run from them when you realize that these “things” or “lifestyle” is nothing but terrible pain. This will continue until you come to the very end of yourself. I KNOW I did it! When you have had enough… well, just HOW MUCH is enough, you ask???

I tell you the truth, the devil has NO limit–he will continue to deceive and manipulate your thinking until all you have left is NOTHING BUT THE TRASH OF EMOTIONAL BAGGAGE. This is his only mission, to DESTROY you.

“THE THIEF COMES ONLY IN ORDER TO STEAL, KILL AND DESTROY. BUT I CAME THAT YOU MAY HAVE AND ENJOY LIFE, AND HAVE IT IN ABUNDANCE TO THE FULL, TILL IT OVERFLOWS” JOHN 10:10

I didn’t know this verse at the time, I didn’t know the promises in God’s word that could save me from myself. So I remained broken hearted, hurt, defeated, depressed, tired, GUILTY…but UNTIL I decided that ENOUGH was ENOUGH and my old self (the “Fallen” alter-ego) was finally willing to die,…this is when God could finally speak to me!

Don’t you see?

I HAD to be completely BROKEN so He could fix me!

AND…the most important part: I HAD TO HATE WHERE I WAS AND WHAT I HAD BECOME!!!!!!!!!!!
Question…Are you done fighting?

Are you tired of it all? Do you “hate” what you are doing or what YOU have become?

Are you tired of putting your “trust” into materialism, success, fame, and flawed humanity?

I KNEW I WAS!!!

So I did it!!! I stopped “chasing” happiness, I stopped “running” from the pain. Ever heard the song, “Running from the Devil”? How true is that? I ran from my home and my painful situation, only to run into more defeat. This is what we REALLY need to get: We need to run into the arms of God the Father and ask him for forgiveness… “BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD.”

He wants us to face our fears… so we can walk through the door we have been avoiding. It’s not locked. We just need to turn the knob and walk in. When we do this, we face our pain and THEN God can move to heal us! If you are fearful, THEN DO IT AFRAID! There will be a huge reward behind it!

Wha…what Annie??? You mean I have to do it afraid???

Can I tell you something people–while you are “waiting” to “feel” like facing your fears the train is going to be gone already….do you want to keep suffering and having no victory in your life?

Besides, fear IS NOT OF GOD! You will never know it unless you try, and would you rather DIE in the fear of your past regrets and mistakes? OR knowing that you gave it your BEST shot by deciding to believe and trust God to walk through?

GET OUT OF THE BOAT OF FEAR!!!

“Anything that you fear has power and authority over you, and sooner or later, you are going to come back full circle, and you are going to have to deal with it!” quote, Joyce Meyer

Get a revelation! Sorry, your life isn’t always going to be bed of roses…with or without God. WE ARE HUMAN!!! duh! But I can reassure you that you will NOT be alone anymore…because God will be walking WITH you…because Jesus says He will “never leave us nor forsake us.” Many times I have fallen BUT I GOT RIGHT BACK UP! I also know for a FACT that WITH God that it won’t be boring and meaningless–it will be radical, exciting, and passionate…but most of all full of real LOVE and HOPE!!!

Face it, nobody’s perfect and God isn’t expecting you to be…if you really try, God will help you walk your new life of freedom…Can you tell me something–could it get any worse than it is now?

How desperate do we all have to get people? Until were sick with cancer, addicted, depressed, until we die…and then go to HELL??? It will be too late by then!!! Hey, take it from me, I tried BOTH worlds without God, the crime world and the corporate world–and NOTHING brought me JOY and PEACE and DELIVERANCE but God.